Around the end of 2014 I *think* some person or maybe multiple ones broke into my computer by phishing. Initially I only noticed strange behavior, didn't think much of that. I just figured it was due to the fact that I kept my forum, and several people didn't like me at all. An example is Pranarupa. His articles struck me as weird, because I had written some silly stuff on pregnenolone in 2013 with alliterations and a format exactly like what he used (alliterations as titles, poems as introductions, number of paragraphs referring to numerology, etc.). I only shared it with two or so people in private since what I wrote seemed to be wrong. It looked to me like he was degrading me in his blog, also. He talked about asymmetry, and posted some monstrous pics on his FB. One of the pics looked like a cartoonesque horror version of a uni picture of me that was taken at the time. I got odded out and figured they got a hold of it somehow (maybe because of one of two other students that knew of Ray Peat groups and that had been on my forum). Subsequent pics also looked like pictures of me at the time ; same lighting, same expression, always a gothic tint to it. Throughout the years after I was rather annoyed by his behavior. In 2016 he wrote a new article, which again seemed to have references to me. Parodies. I got annoyed, saw he lost two subscribers, I thought that was funny, and right then he closed his blog. Later on, after receiving an e-mail from Ray Peat complimenting him, he opened a new one. The new blog was called 'vashin vetala' ('vagina vampire').
You had Christina Ieronymakis who was more easy to interpret. She contacted me out of nowhere in December 2014. I ignored her for more than a month, then messaged back, then left, but even a year later she contacted me again (she did so a few times in 2015, which to me seemed absurd since I simply did not answer to her). She called at the end of 2015, I didn't take up the phone after which she put up a video on her youtube with the title 'Final Call'. I thought there was something odd going on because she barely used that youtube before and suddenly it was filled with weird videos, and it just kept getting more weird. The videos looked like insults towards me (also comments on asymmetry, monstrous stuff, etc.). If you haven't gotten it already, I do have asymmetry in my face. Here are somewhat bad examples of how she acted :
I end up in the hospital (yeah ... it got pretty bad, too long to explain), develop a scar after surgery, when back home I google 'how to heal scars', she puts this online :
Or I do some shitty freelancer job which earns me very little while I study for exams, she posts this (the vid she shared has been removed I think, it's a substitute) :
(read the lyrics here, 'looking like a villain', 'spotlight on me and I'm feelin' so rare tonight', 'I'm fuckin' flawless like I live in a vault', the insults are always the same)
Or I'm starting to think out loud that I'm losing hair, and note down that I need to fix my bike (my bike is red and they should know that since I bought it online), she posts this (will comment on the use of French later on, but you'd have to know my room at the time, with a digital organ on my right, a globe on my desk, a guitar behind me on the bed, and I was playing music all the time doing little) :
Or I call her swollen out loud because she kept commenting on my looks and she posts this:
It's hard to explain but she seemed to refer a great deal to my drawings from 2013, when I lived at the sea. She seems to think they were about her but it makes little sense.
Or I start whistling a whole lot, then ('birdcage', and references to dinosaurs etc. as always) :
(and at the same time she also posted another vid with a bird, it was a vid about a guy with a bird and a sick father and a jellyfish, this was right after I had a spat with my father and I mumbled in front of my computer something along the lines of 'he's sick', kept whistling, and called her a jellyfish out loud)
Or I post this vid online to parody her as she likes to do with me, then change my mind and take it away, and she posts this (I watched Japanese movies from Ozu, she represents herself like a cat) :
Or I look at French vids and she posts this (the French thing got weird as she never talked a single word of French but suddenly went all in there - half of my family only speaks French, I talk French with my parents) :
Or I subscribe to some Flemish channels or pages and Christina subscribes to 'Flemish TV BE' and when I 'respond' disparagingly (hard to explain how, also by posting a youtube vid on my profile) she unsubscribes.
All of it seems way too shady to me, you'd have to be in my place to appreciate how weird it all was.
This happened about 150 times in 2 years, just her. I'd say about 95% of what she posted on that youtube looked like a direct insult in those years. There are a few more Peat-related people that behaved in extremely similar ways, and the content of their insults/parodies were the same (eg. comments on asymmetry).
Some guy I used to talk to sent me some vid, which seemed like yet another derogatory comment on my looks. I deleted the e-mail. Shortly after he sent it again. Similar (short) e-mail, same vid. I proceeded to ridicule some of his personal issues after which he told me I have no empathy and should visit a doctor, and left. I never heard of him again. That same guy would ask me strange questions that seemed to come out of nowhere, but that I later understood to correspond with my private life (at the time I didn't consider it a possibility, I considered it a coincidence). He had not been like that in 2014 or before that, though I fairly regularly talked to him.
Not just the content but the timing was usually in exact accordance with things happening in my private life. What's more, when I moved out of the house and bought a new computer, virtually all of the profiles that had once been interpretable weren't anymore. Their insults didn't match my current lifestyle, current looks (hairstyle etc.), ... Pranarupa stopped talking, most people didn't say much online anymore.
It is very easy for them to faint ignorance and claim I have some mental disorder. Brad Abrahams ended up saying I have apophenia. He was a member of Peatarian but changed his nickname (in 2015 I think). An example of an overlap with Brad's profile is how I wrote down some memory I had about not liking to be touched when I was younger, then during the months after Danny Roddy shared studies on exactly that subject a few times (the importance of human touch for well-being etc.) while Brad Abrahams shared this :
This was posted within a week after I made the note. Again, my facial asymmetry was very noticeable at the time and I was gaunt and unhealthy-looking since I had no money and lived on scraps, plus got all this stress to deal with. Calling me a monkey was done very often. Christina was befriended with Brad Abrahams on FaceBook, they followed each other on Instagram, and she was befriended with absolutely nobody else in the Ray Peat groups.
Throughout the years I endlessly 'tested the waters' and it just led me to this conclusion. I know it sounds rather crazy, but there's so much evidence.